reasons to WORK.

i just met with my new job coach. she was nice, i didn't see any problems with her. we were sitting in my living room talking and she asked me if i went to any job fairs. i said, "it feels like i've been to a few job fairs a long time ago." i'm pretty sure i remember going to one when i was living in minneapolis with a job coach and then i think i went to one when i lived in burnsville but it didn't seem like anyone was really interested in hiring me because i lived in burnsville- which is far from the cities where all the jobs are. luckily.. i managed to move to st. paul where i get a lot more employers interested in hiring me and requesting job interviews. everything that appealed to me when i first moved to burnsville seemed to move away or shut down. you're not punishing me with inactivity just so you can be in a location which is close enough to me that people assume you're a "caring" person just because they know they'd support and care for their family member if the shoe were on the other foot. would they hold their daughter in front of them while their dad was drunk and angry to avoid getting kicked, still risking her safety?! it's NOT a question of IF my mom cares (because she clearly doesn't).. it's a question of what she's willing to risk for my own good. she doesn't care about me if it doesn't benefit her or make her look like a "caring" person.. so she OBVIOUSLY doesn't care about what's good for me to make me as happy and successful as possible if it doesn't benefit her in some way. you'd hope that she would grow up and realize all the things i've been through to get where i am and she doesn't care to see me do better or my best for my own well-being. she still hasn't realized that having a child is NOT like having a pet. it involves more responsiblity and care. care that eliminates any amount of being SELFISH. grow the fuck up. pretty damn sad when your own child is more mature and responsible than a parent. cut the disability bullshit excuse also. in case you haven't realized it- I'M DISABLED TOO. i KNOW that you're acting less capable of doing shit the normal person does. if you couldn't read- how the fuck did you know what i wrote on my blog? cut the shit. you've lost pretty much all respect from me and you can't even cling to me in an attempt to stunt my progression. it's became PERSONAL when you attempt to falsely care and think you have any influence on where i end up in the future- just because you and fat amy don't have a damn future.. DOESN'T mean i'm just gonna throw EVERYTHING i've busted my ass to get. if you assholes REALLY cared about me as much as you try to make it seem- you'd be encouraging and supporting me to get as far as i KNOW i'm capable of living REGARDLESS IF IT MAKES YOU GUYS APPEAR AS FUCKING SELFISH AND IGNORANT AS YOU BOTH ARE. stalk me all the fuck you want- it's NOT gonna drag me back or stop me from going where i AM going. just because you guys ruined your future- does NOT mean i'll just throw away everything i worked my ass off to get. concentrate on your own fat ass and work on getting your GED because i can GUARANTEE you that when AI expands- IT'S GONNA TAKE AWAY ALL THE JOBS WHICH DON'T REQUIRE EDUCATION. it's just a matter of time. THEN YOU'LL BE LIVING UNDER THE BRIDGE AND ASKING PEOPLE FOR MONEY WITH SIGNS ON THE STREETS. i'm not just saying this shit to be funny- IT'LL HAPPEN. hopefully all your damn kids get jobs or they'll be out there on the streets with signs too.